Memory by Lois McMaster Bujold, published 1997
(In-Universe #10 chronologically in the Miles Vorkosigan Saga)
I’ve discovered that I have this strange sympathetic, semi-symbiotic relationship with Miles Vorkosigan. Lack of Miles gives me anxiety attacks. When Miles screws up and falls into his major depressions, my depression gets even worse. The people that Miles cares for, I adore. The people he doesn’t like, I hate. The only places that I seem to disagree with him, I’ve already mentioned (and they generally have to do with the theoretical ethics of sci-fi universes). On to the actual review of this book. By the by, this one was truly nominated for a Hugo. Also, it’s probably my favorite since The Vor Game.
Miles screws up big time and gets fired. Illyan becomes mysteriously ill and his brain goes crazy. Miles, Gregor, and Ivan are all still the most exceedingly lovable Vor boys ever. Gregor gets engaged. And Miles actually does an awesome job at his makeshift position, and gets a new job. Tada. There really isn’t anything else to say about this except it is a fantastic exploration of what happens to you emotionally when you screw up so bad that you lose all of your dreams.
I’ve got three more out of the library right now, there are two more I can get from State, and the newest one I will just have to hunt down. Then I will have read them all. I’m not sure I’ll keep writing up these reviews. I just sort of wanted to say that, while I was highly upset by the beginning of this novel, I think it settled back down into an acceptable continuance by the end.